learning programming for the first time can be hard and confusing. you don't seem to understand anything and no books or online tutorials seem to help. you need someone to explain everything to you in a way you understand and finally make progress until you get to a level where you can code your own projects. i have taught students from all over the globe, people who believed they cant learn programming and wanted to give up. i proved them wrong, anyone can learn to code with the right materials, help, and motivation. i teach using skype with screen sharing (contact me fo more info).